I have returned to school and am ending a brief interim I had taken in Thesis work. From approximately my birthday (mid-January – towards the end of the break) until this past Tuesday, when I first met with my Thesis Advisor since being back, I have not looked at any Thesis related materials. Yet, right before my meeting with my advisor I finally re-opened my Thesis word document to refresh myself on my most pressing questions. I had been dreading the return to Thesis work and before I took my half-month pause I had been feeling as though I had sort of reached a wall. I had 30 some pages, including an outline of the majority of the piece as well as some more fully written sections, but (and I feel I am reporting fear and anxiety all too often in this blog) I worried about how to fill in the missing bits and chunks and about the strength of the parts I had fully drafted. Anyway, I think undergraduate Theses are an exercise in enacting the mantra “keep calm and carry on.”
But upon looking over what I had, I felt surprised to realize what I had was not so horrible and I was not so lost as I had thought. I was struck with pride at what I had accomplished over Winter Break. This week I plan to dive fully back into my Thesis work and I’m hopeful that I will begin to have more rewarding moments like the aforementioned. It’s awing to think I am, in some ways nearly a year into this process (it will soon be a year since I applied for the Honors program in Anthropology) and even more stunning to realize I am nearing the full stop of the process (Thesis defense !!). I’ll keep you updated in these next few months as the process comes to a close (no doubt with some labor intensification and more worry and fear prior to that close).